I'm in Aberystwyth now... in my room... looking at the photos which were on facebook...
I noticed the changes
The years have passed so fast...
The pattern of this world changeth
The shadow of time steals away...
I looked at them... I felt different emotions... of joy, of love, of anger, of doubt...
Some seemed more cherishable, others seemed less.
Why did I harbor hatred, jelousy, anger, sadness, envy against Thine bride which Thou hast purchased with Thy blood?
Why was it so hard for me all those while to have heard your truth but not act it out in love and kindness, practicing mercy and doing justice?
I was so zealous for Thy house and for Thy people!
I was made use of... I offered myself to be made use of...
I felt dry then, I was desperate for Thee o God!
Why? Maybe it was because I ventured to please men and not Thee my God...
Was it worth so much the toil?
Was it worth so much the hypocrisy?
LORD, to Thee and Thee alone do I confess these sins...
I repent of these of which Thou hatest!
I pray Thee O LORD, pardon me of my sins...
Wash me in the blood of Thy Son, Jesus our Messiah!
LORD, I pray Thee, fill me with Thy Spirit.
Saturate me with Thy Word!
Let me live a life pleasing unto Thee...
I thank Thee for Thou hast taught me here
that Thou art no respecter of persons
Thou O God, shewest mercy, kindness and grace unto the many who fear Thy Name!
Thou O God, exalteth the humble and cause the proud to be lowly!
O God, blessed art Thou for Thy graces and mercies unto me...
LORD, the memories I have of the years past
I give them to Thee
Pleasant or torturing, I lay them at Thy feet
Thou art the bright and morning star
Help me not to turn back
Keep mine eyes focused on Thy face, Lord Jesus,
I want to see Your face!
LORD, bless all those who call on Thy name
Answer them in the morning with Thy lovingkindess
Bless them O God, that they may prosper at Thy will
Bless them O God, that they may become like Thee
Bless those O God who knoweth not Thy Name
Bless them that they might know the fear of the LORD.
Blessed art Thou O God!
Perfect me in Thy love
Form and shape me into the image of Thy Son
Cause me to become like Him, imitating Him
That is the only goal in my life O God!
What else do I have?
What other goal is there worth pursuing but Thee and Thy presence?
More of Thee O GOD! Mayest Thou increase and I decrease! Increase Thy rule in me O God!
Blessed art Thou o God!
There is no other like unto Thee o God!
May my life be an acceptable offering unto Thee of God!
Tuesday 27 December 2011
Sunday 27 November 2011
孤独。。。
亲爱的主。。。
我最近有时觉得十分孤独。。。
有时我想灭掉这个感觉。。。
我不了解。。 我不明白。。
求你使我明白，哦主！求你查验我的心， 哦主！
有时在这些时刻。。 我十分的渴慕更任何人说话。。。
有时我认为这个感受是我自己渴慕得到一位女友。。。
哦主，你知道一切！主啊！！
主啊， 你知道我还爱你。。。
主啊，我认，我实在的对你不信实。
我多次的不仰望你。。。
主啊！恳求你帮助我。。。 恳求你使我每分每秒，每一个时刻，
无论在什么情况下， 都专注在你身上！
主啊，恳求你不离开我。。
恳求你与你的圣灵和你的旨意充满我。。
主啊，我许要你！
我把这一切都献上给你。
恳求你也大大地辅助那些比我更加的孤单
恳求你拯救他们，恳求你大大地祝福他们
恳求你赐给他们你的喜乐，
你的平安
你的荣耀
你的同在
你的爱
谢谢你耶稣。
感谢你耶稣。
我最近有时觉得十分孤独。。。
有时我想灭掉这个感觉。。。
我不了解。。 我不明白。。
求你使我明白，哦主！求你查验我的心， 哦主！
有时在这些时刻。。 我十分的渴慕更任何人说话。。。
有时我认为这个感受是我自己渴慕得到一位女友。。。
哦主，你知道一切！主啊！！
主啊， 你知道我还爱你。。。
主啊，我认，我实在的对你不信实。
我多次的不仰望你。。。
主啊！恳求你帮助我。。。 恳求你使我每分每秒，每一个时刻，
无论在什么情况下， 都专注在你身上！
主啊，恳求你不离开我。。
恳求你与你的圣灵和你的旨意充满我。。
主啊，我许要你！
我把这一切都献上给你。
恳求你也大大地辅助那些比我更加的孤单
恳求你拯救他们，恳求你大大地祝福他们
恳求你赐给他们你的喜乐，
你的平安
你的荣耀
你的同在
你的爱
谢谢你耶稣。
感谢你耶稣。
Tuesday 1 November 2011
Teffilim
O my Jesus,
I was in a lecture this afternoon on Criminal Law and it was on murder.
O my Jesus,
I lift my troubled heart into your hands. I lift those children who were not yet born and regarded under the law as not being a human being into your hands and were further denied the right to continue living so as to face the realities of this world. It may be that they were more fortunate not to have been born into this corrupt world in which You allow us to live. I believe that You have received them into Your Hands and that they are being taken care of by Your angels and can see You clearly without any hindrance and can meet You.
I lift those who were guilty of murder and yet acquitted for their guilt. I hate the evil they do. Please have mercy on them and save them. Send Your messengers to them that they may hear Your good news! May they repent and turn back to You.
I lift the judges who gave the judgement in the Royal Courts of England. I ask that You would have mercy and change them to give just and right judgements. I ask that You would reform them.
I know that we live in a fallen world. I know that you allow me to hear all these things to let me not be comfortable in my current circumstances or in this world.
Please grant to Your eved of whom You purchased by Your blood which You have shed on Your cross to be able to present Your good news to others with boldness, even within the work of which I need to do. Let me be able to judge with right judgements, let me learn Your justice and Your righteousness.
O my Jesus, I lift all these madness of which I have heard into Your hands. My heart cries out for want of justice!! Oh, how fallen we are... I commit these into Your hands now. I believe that You will come back to judge the living and the dead for all that they have done in this body and in this life.
Thank You Jesus! AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday 16 May 2011
To all my friends...
I met you since primary and secondary...
The years have passed so fast that I can't remember all that happened.
I met only a few of you... my mind was then blur... i did not know how to appreciate you.
I met you with a wall of hostility in my mind.
I did not talk with you nor played with you.
I did not get to know you better.
All my days just passed like a shadow...
And now when I meet you again, I feel excited and startled at the same time, longing to spend more time with you.
But I also feel sad because I am not a good friend and have not been a friend who really cared for you.
Please forgive me for my faults.
I will continue to pray for you.
Hope you would be able to meet Jesus in your life and be changed!
God bless you richly in Messiah!
Tuesday 1 June 2010
WHY DO YOU HATE YISRAEL!?
BELOW IS AN ARTICLE FROM JERUSALEM POST ABOUT THE RECENT FLOTILLA CLASH.
THIS SHOWS YOU GUYS A CLEAR PICTURE OF WHAT THE PALESTINIANS TRY TO DO EVERYTIME....
SHA'ALU SHALOM YERUSHALAYIM!
PRAY FOR THE PEACE OF JERUSALEM!
Photo by: ASSOCIATED PRESS
06/01/2010 08:44
THIS SHOWS YOU GUYS A CLEAR PICTURE OF WHAT THE PALESTINIANS TRY TO DO EVERYTIME....
SHA'ALU SHALOM YERUSHALAYIM!
PRAY FOR THE PEACE OF JERUSALEM!
Photo by: ASSOCIATED PRESS
Peace activists? More like 'peace' militants
By ZVI MAZEL06/01/2010 08:44
Talkbacks (10)
As expected, the provocation mounted by Muslim organizations in association with “peace activists” was successful beyond their wildest dreams: There were casualties. They can now continue pointing the finger at Israel and blaming it for everything under the sun. The organizers of the flotilla, a fanatic Turkish organization known under the initials IHH and its European partners, had repeatedly and explicitly declared before setting out that their purpose was to break the Gaza siege and embarrass Israel.
The humanitarian supplies brought on board were just a ploy to hide their avowed objective. Israel did all it could to stop it. Appeals to Turkey went unheeded and that country let the flotilla sail and gave its assistance. Israel offered to have all humanitarian supplies brought to the Ashdod port where they could then be sent to Gaza through our crossings. Israel also asked the “peace militants” to transmit a letter to captured IDF soldier Gilad Schalit, who has been in Hamas custody for almost four years. The militants were not interested in any humanitarian operation. They wanted to carry out their joint Arab-European propaganda offensive against Israel in order to delegitimize the Jewish state, deepen its isolation and provoke an international outcry.
Weeks before the flotilla set sail the Arab media began broadcasting pictures of the preparations together with aggressive declarations by the organizers and the usual slanders against Israel. European governments and media did not react nor did they heed the warnings issued by Israel.
There were no recommendations of caution, and no honest reporting on the actual situation in Gaza. Yet all knew that the blockade had started because of the terror operations carried out by Hamas and the smuggling of weapons. All knew also that there is no humanitarian crisis in Gaza: Israel lets through dozens and sometimes hundreds of trucks laden with humanitarian supplies on a daily basis.
Unfortunately we are the target of an Arab and international propaganda offensive characterized by the deliberate refusal to present the Israeli positions and indeed anything positive about that country. This is “political correctness” in its starkest expression. The organizers of the so-called humanitarian operation understood only too well that they could go on with their plans secure in the support of the Arab and European media.
AND THEN it happened. These “peace militants” carefully planned their ambush. After having said repeatedly that they would only pose passive resistance, they attacked the soldiers who boarded the ship with guns, iron bars and knives and led to the dire results they were looking for.
Once again, they were fully aware of the fact that Israel intended to lead the ships to the port of Ashdod, deliver the supplies to Gaza and send the participants back to their country of origin. Such a solution would have been acceptable to both parties. The militants would have claimed a moral victory and Israel would have sustained its legitimate policy of controlling what went to the Gaza Strip. But this is not the way of the “peace militants” whose hatred towards Israel knows no bounds. They wanted to cause some damage, no matter the cost for them. After all, suicide bombing is the terrorist weapon of choice and the aim justifies the means.
Did Israel have a choice? It had to stop the flotilla since no one knew who the people on the ships were and what exactly they carried. Had the ships been allowed to go through, others would have followed, perhaps bringing weapons (and who knows, maybe terrorists) to Hamas, a terrorist organization which has made its intent to destroy the Jewish state clear.
Stopping the flotilla was Israel’s right under international law. One can also ask where all the peace organizations and their militants were during the eight years Hamas deluged the south with thousands of rockets. Where were they when Schalit was taken? Where were they when Hamas took over the Gaza Strip in a bloody coup? Did they protest the slaughter that went on? Did they protest when so-called opposition leaders were thrown off the roofs of tall buildings? Did they protest when other leaders had their kneecaps shot?
And so now we are facing a full-blown diplomatic crisis. Turkey will use it to the full to harm Israel. Arab states – and Iran – will add fuel to the fire and clamor for the UN to step in and condemn Israel. The European Union will, as usual, put the blame squarely on us – and us alone. In fact it has already started, without waiting for the whole picture to emerge.
It won’t be easy for us for two reasons. Our government failed to prepare adequately for the fallout and did not set in motion the media blitz which would have presented our case more forcibly before the flotilla set out. And two – we can’t expect help or even assistance from anyone.
But if that’s the way it is, that’s the way it is. The biblical words from Numbers 23:9 come to mind: “Lo, the people shall dwell alone and shall not be reckoned among the nations.”
The writer is a former ambassador to Romania, Egypt and Sweden and a fellow at the Jerusalem Center for Public Affairs.
The humanitarian supplies brought on board were just a ploy to hide their avowed objective. Israel did all it could to stop it. Appeals to Turkey went unheeded and that country let the flotilla sail and gave its assistance. Israel offered to have all humanitarian supplies brought to the Ashdod port where they could then be sent to Gaza through our crossings. Israel also asked the “peace militants” to transmit a letter to captured IDF soldier Gilad Schalit, who has been in Hamas custody for almost four years. The militants were not interested in any humanitarian operation. They wanted to carry out their joint Arab-European propaganda offensive against Israel in order to delegitimize the Jewish state, deepen its isolation and provoke an international outcry.
Weeks before the flotilla set sail the Arab media began broadcasting pictures of the preparations together with aggressive declarations by the organizers and the usual slanders against Israel. European governments and media did not react nor did they heed the warnings issued by Israel.
There were no recommendations of caution, and no honest reporting on the actual situation in Gaza. Yet all knew that the blockade had started because of the terror operations carried out by Hamas and the smuggling of weapons. All knew also that there is no humanitarian crisis in Gaza: Israel lets through dozens and sometimes hundreds of trucks laden with humanitarian supplies on a daily basis.
Unfortunately we are the target of an Arab and international propaganda offensive characterized by the deliberate refusal to present the Israeli positions and indeed anything positive about that country. This is “political correctness” in its starkest expression. The organizers of the so-called humanitarian operation understood only too well that they could go on with their plans secure in the support of the Arab and European media.
AND THEN it happened. These “peace militants” carefully planned their ambush. After having said repeatedly that they would only pose passive resistance, they attacked the soldiers who boarded the ship with guns, iron bars and knives and led to the dire results they were looking for.
Once again, they were fully aware of the fact that Israel intended to lead the ships to the port of Ashdod, deliver the supplies to Gaza and send the participants back to their country of origin. Such a solution would have been acceptable to both parties. The militants would have claimed a moral victory and Israel would have sustained its legitimate policy of controlling what went to the Gaza Strip. But this is not the way of the “peace militants” whose hatred towards Israel knows no bounds. They wanted to cause some damage, no matter the cost for them. After all, suicide bombing is the terrorist weapon of choice and the aim justifies the means.
Did Israel have a choice? It had to stop the flotilla since no one knew who the people on the ships were and what exactly they carried. Had the ships been allowed to go through, others would have followed, perhaps bringing weapons (and who knows, maybe terrorists) to Hamas, a terrorist organization which has made its intent to destroy the Jewish state clear.
Stopping the flotilla was Israel’s right under international law. One can also ask where all the peace organizations and their militants were during the eight years Hamas deluged the south with thousands of rockets. Where were they when Schalit was taken? Where were they when Hamas took over the Gaza Strip in a bloody coup? Did they protest the slaughter that went on? Did they protest when so-called opposition leaders were thrown off the roofs of tall buildings? Did they protest when other leaders had their kneecaps shot?
And so now we are facing a full-blown diplomatic crisis. Turkey will use it to the full to harm Israel. Arab states – and Iran – will add fuel to the fire and clamor for the UN to step in and condemn Israel. The European Union will, as usual, put the blame squarely on us – and us alone. In fact it has already started, without waiting for the whole picture to emerge.
It won’t be easy for us for two reasons. Our government failed to prepare adequately for the fallout and did not set in motion the media blitz which would have presented our case more forcibly before the flotilla set out. And two – we can’t expect help or even assistance from anyone.
But if that’s the way it is, that’s the way it is. The biblical words from Numbers 23:9 come to mind: “Lo, the people shall dwell alone and shall not be reckoned among the nations.”
The writer is a former ambassador to Romania, Egypt and Sweden and a fellow at the Jerusalem Center for Public Affairs.
Thursday 31 December 2009
新年。。。
2009 年过得真快。。。 嗨！
我现在写着这个post 也觉得有不同的心情产在一起。。。
有一点儿的excitement。。。
有一点儿的担忧。。。
我感觉到自己在这年里做了很少
我也不舍得离开这一年儿
但是我骑乃得耶稣依然不停的叫我 “let go of the past! look forward and walk"
我现在写着这个post 也觉得有不同的心情产在一起。。。
有一点儿的excitement。。。
有一点儿的担忧。。。
我感觉到自己在这年里做了很少
我也不舍得离开这一年儿
但是我骑乃得耶稣依然不停的叫我 “let go of the past! look forward and walk"
我也想回这一年里上帝所做的美事儿。。。
上帝送我去国民服务，让我能体会别人的心和变得跟有耐心。
上帝让我去祷告山的conference，让我能看见祂是一位又真又活得神。
上帝让我能从我钢琴老师的身上学了很多东西。
主啊，你对我的恩典何等的大！
每次在困难和挣扎中唯有你是帮助我
唯有你牵着我双手引我走你要我走的路
虽然有时我不懂你在我身旁
虽然有时我心中一直埋怨，一直有恨，甚至有邪恶的心情
但是你一直耐心的饶恕我
教导我。。。
哦我亲爱的耶稣！
我怎能报答你对我的恩惠和慈爱呢？
我只能献上我身体当作活祭！
我的耶稣，愿你喜悦这活祭！
主啊，年年有你我仍然有安息
年年有你就是好年！
我要天天在你翅膀下欢喜, 求你帮助我！
愿你天天也协助我亲戚 （有其实我两位表弟）不要give up
帮他们天天不停的呼求你，赞美你！
耶稣基督的子民要靠这祂，必定得胜！！
哈利路亚！！主啊, 愿你的国度降临！
愿你的旨意行在全地！
愿你荣耀充满全地，如同海水那样充满地球！
AMEN!!
Thursday 10 December 2009
What do you do when a stranger approaches you...
Shalom!
Something strange happened to me yesterday as I was doing something...
Let me tell you what i was doing yesterday.
..................................................................................................
I decided to do a few things as soon as i can.
1) Take form 5 books for Crystal
2) Close my Agro Bank account (opened for NS... their service is not good)
3) Mail something to Singapore
I reach train station i forgot to bring water........... so thirsty!
Anyways..
I was on my way to Agro Bank. I just noticed that it was so easy to get there... just sit train to Masjid Jamek and walk to the opposite side of the train station, behind all the shops...
And then I was so close to Agro Bank like just less than 1minuite walk to the entrance where you can feel the air-cond blowing... a man approached me!
He was an Indian and he like politely approached me. He was like,"Excuse me, I need a small help from you. You see...."
Here's his story...
He was just released from a prison which is in Johor... He was detained because of a passport case... I can't remember what name he told me.. and said that he was given a warrant ticket to KL which was like only one way? So, he used the ticket and he reached KL... and from there he has to go back home himself...
So, he asked me for help to give him some money to help him go back to his home in Taman Semarak Nilai (if i remember correctly....) He was like begging me to help him saying that he just borrow money and will return to me where ever i stay? ......
My response.....
as he was explaining his reason for asking help from me... i was silently praying asking God to give me wisdom and help me... i was shocked a little... but i thank GOd for His peace which does not leave me! There was that calmness within my heart......
I tried to find other ways to tell him how to go home... so hard...
I know he knows how to go home by train and by taxi or bus... but... is he telling me the truth?
I asked him to call his family to pick him up but he said that his family not free/nobody pick up phone and that now he has met me he has nothing with him!
Oh dear.... then he tells me that he has a son studying in UTAR..
Ding! Ding! IDEA
"Sir, i know how you can get to UTAR... here's what you do la... I give you RM5, you take the PUTRA to Melati station and walk straight to UTAR. Its just near there then you meet ur son la!"
But he like dun wan... and then when i ask him to call his son, he said that he has nothing with him to call his son...
uhoh... running out of options...
nvm la!
i gave him rm10 and then i prayed for him. Then, he introduced himself to me saying his name is Andrew, he's a Christian... I talked with him for a while...
In the end i bid him goodbye and safe journey..
Reflecting on this incident... from my experience, i still hold to what Jesus says about what to do when people ask help... if i'm not wrong it is in Luke.
who am i to judge if he is telling the truth of the lie. Let God judge!
Something strange happened to me yesterday as I was doing something...
Let me tell you what i was doing yesterday.
..................................................................................................
I decided to do a few things as soon as i can.
1) Take form 5 books for Crystal
2) Close my Agro Bank account (opened for NS... their service is not good)
3) Mail something to Singapore
I reach train station i forgot to bring water........... so thirsty!
Anyways..
I was on my way to Agro Bank. I just noticed that it was so easy to get there... just sit train to Masjid Jamek and walk to the opposite side of the train station, behind all the shops...
And then I was so close to Agro Bank like just less than 1minuite walk to the entrance where you can feel the air-cond blowing... a man approached me!
He was an Indian and he like politely approached me. He was like,"Excuse me, I need a small help from you. You see...."
Here's his story...
He was just released from a prison which is in Johor... He was detained because of a passport case... I can't remember what name he told me.. and said that he was given a warrant ticket to KL which was like only one way? So, he used the ticket and he reached KL... and from there he has to go back home himself...
So, he asked me for help to give him some money to help him go back to his home in Taman Semarak Nilai (if i remember correctly....) He was like begging me to help him saying that he just borrow money and will return to me where ever i stay? ......
My response.....
as he was explaining his reason for asking help from me... i was silently praying asking God to give me wisdom and help me... i was shocked a little... but i thank GOd for His peace which does not leave me! There was that calmness within my heart......
I tried to find other ways to tell him how to go home... so hard...
I know he knows how to go home by train and by taxi or bus... but... is he telling me the truth?
I asked him to call his family to pick him up but he said that his family not free/nobody pick up phone and that now he has met me he has nothing with him!
Oh dear.... then he tells me that he has a son studying in UTAR..
Ding! Ding! IDEA
"Sir, i know how you can get to UTAR... here's what you do la... I give you RM5, you take the PUTRA to Melati station and walk straight to UTAR. Its just near there then you meet ur son la!"
But he like dun wan... and then when i ask him to call his son, he said that he has nothing with him to call his son...
uhoh... running out of options...
nvm la!
i gave him rm10 and then i prayed for him. Then, he introduced himself to me saying his name is Andrew, he's a Christian... I talked with him for a while...
In the end i bid him goodbye and safe journey..
Reflecting on this incident... from my experience, i still hold to what Jesus says about what to do when people ask help... if i'm not wrong it is in Luke.
who am i to judge if he is telling the truth of the lie. Let God judge!
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