Tuesday 27 December 2011

28 Dec 2011 0133hours Reminiscing

I'm in Aberystwyth now... in my room... looking at the photos which were on facebook...
I noticed the changes
The years have passed so fast...
The pattern of this world changeth
The shadow of time steals away...
I looked at them... I felt different emotions... of joy, of love, of anger, of doubt...
Some seemed more cherishable, others seemed less.

Why did I harbor hatred, jelousy, anger, sadness, envy against Thine bride which Thou hast purchased with Thy blood?
Why was it so hard for me all those while to have heard your truth but not act it out in love and kindness, practicing mercy and doing justice?
I was so zealous for Thy house and for Thy people!
I was made use of... I offered myself to be made use of...
I felt dry then, I was desperate for Thee o God!

Why? Maybe it was because I ventured to please men and not Thee my God...

Was it worth so much the toil?
Was it worth so much the hypocrisy?

LORD, to Thee and Thee alone do I confess these sins...
I repent of these of which Thou hatest!
I pray Thee O LORD, pardon me of my sins...
Wash me in the blood of Thy Son, Jesus our Messiah!

LORD, I pray Thee, fill me with Thy Spirit.
Saturate me with Thy Word!
Let me live a life pleasing unto Thee...

I thank Thee for Thou hast taught me here
that Thou art no respecter of persons
Thou O God, shewest mercy, kindness and grace unto the many who fear Thy Name!
Thou O God, exalteth the humble and cause the proud to be lowly!
O God, blessed art Thou for Thy graces and mercies unto me...

LORD, the memories I have of the years past
I give them to Thee
Pleasant or torturing, I lay them at Thy feet
Thou art the bright and morning star
Help me not to turn back
Keep mine eyes focused on Thy face, Lord Jesus,
I want to see Your face!

LORD, bless all those who call on Thy name
Answer them in the morning with Thy lovingkindess
Bless them O God, that they may prosper at Thy will
Bless them O God, that they may become like Thee
Bless those O God who knoweth not Thy Name
Bless them that they might know the fear of the LORD.

Blessed art Thou O God!
Perfect me in Thy love
Form and shape me into the image of Thy Son
Cause me to become like Him, imitating Him
That is the only goal in my life O God!
What else do I have?
What other goal is there worth pursuing but Thee and Thy presence?
More of Thee O GOD! Mayest Thou increase and I decrease! Increase Thy rule in me O God!

Blessed art Thou o God!
There is no other like unto Thee o God!
May my life be an acceptable offering unto Thee of God!