September 18 Ninth hour of the night near the tenth

Day: Somewhat hazy in the city
Dear readers, how I hope I could be more constant in posting... my brother is holding the internet and he is like rationing it haha... anyways...

Today is the 5th day of SPM trials and I truly praise Jesus the Holy and Wise One who guided me through out my exam. May all the credit and glory be to His Name. I was just somewhat tired today... thanks to rememorizing my nilai-nilai murni for moral exam tomorrow... I mean well... its not all a bore but the more I memorized (while waiting for my sis at my primary school) I just felt like a drag... I felt quite tired... So, I reached home and I just slept after bathing and then... well.. I just felt blur...

Then, it was the seventh hour near to the eighth of the night and... I was still sleeping. My sis waked me up and I was still blur.. then my mom saw me so tired just woke up from sleep and told me to wait for my brother who would take me to eat dinner at my neighbour's house because he invited us as this was his daughter's last night before her marriage. I was there at the couch sleeping until my grandmother was shouting at the grail "A Cristal!" for a few times until I woke up... still blur... then, I went to my neighbour's and congratulated him and then I sat down to eat with them.

And then... I was like semi blur and semi clear... then my mother told me that my father's friend told her and wanted to tell me about taking STPM. I heard his "lectures" and advices. No offense but.. I felt offended when I heard the word "no good taking STPM" I mean COME ON!! STPM is like any common course to go to university.. why make things so complicated?? And then he still goes on to tell me that I should go overseas to study because my father can afford and that I should really research the courses out there.. I mean well.. I will and thanks for the reminder but... what ticked my heart was, "You know why I tell you that you should go overseas to study? Its becos you can have the card to migrate to another country."

Hello!? I not interested in migrating! I only interested in where Yeshua wants me to go and stay there for His service. And then my feelings overtook me and I just became quite rude before them. My mother came back and sort of scolded me and lectured me while my defiant side tried to defend me. I forgive her cause she feels embarresed becos of my attitude. I repented of my sin and... sigh... My heart just cries to Yeshua who hears:
"Oh, Yeshua Ha Messiah! I'll go wherever you want me to go. You plan for me and give me a clear mind to know what you have planned for me that I may glorify You only."

Dear readers, I hope you all dun just leave this country and forget about the people here who need Yeshua. May He carry out His will on earth as it is in Heaven.

-H.A.R.O-