Hi again!

Hey people,
I'm back! (After a long break from posting! hahahah!)

Well, the holidays are here and thank God that my finals were over. I truly praise God for all the marks that I have received back from my final exams... although my Accounting paper was not good because I got 42 which my teacher did her best to push it up to 48... sigh...
I tell you all la... seriously... my school (School of Pre-University Studies) in Tunku Abdul Rahman College is super cina... Reli lor... but what can you expect... I am one of their scholars (God's work not mine) and they expect very very much from their scholars... one subject if did not get 60 and above, they will issue a warning letter to us and tell us that if we do not get 60 and above they will withdraw our scholarship... scary but still thank God that He helped me through my exams...
Well, I hope that during the holidays I have enough time and energy to recap my studies...

Honestly, lately, I've had ups and downs.. like energy swings you know? sometimes you have much energy and sometimes you don't have...
And the funny thing is that when you have much energy, you don't have much to do... and when you have not so much energy in you, you have many things to do... sigh... I wish that everyday I can have much energy... through the filling of the Holy Spirit of course... still learning to be patient in waiting on Him.

And now, as I'm writing this post, I feel tired and a bit no semangat cause, VBS is coming so soon and we have not started anything yet! Then last Thursday when I read email sent by Timothy to me on MSN, I felt guilty and a bit sad coz he asked me to be supervising and helping the decorations move smoothly... and I am so ineffecient and well... so lazy... I may be not organized at times also...
I honestly also have regrets in my heart about saying yes to supervising decorations...

But I will do my best in this area that I have been given to do... These feelings shall have no dominion over me because greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world!

And on a personal note, even though what people may tell me about what my church may lack greatly in (which is true), I will do my best to persevere and pray for Jesus' church (Cheras Baptist Church).

Precious Holy Spirit, help me pray to our dear Jesus Christ that Cheras Baptist Church would be renewed into a new wineskin so that YOU can take control over her and that your sheep of Cheras Baptist Church would experience a fresh outpouring of YOU, a new relationship with YOU, YOUR new oil in each person's life; that we may be a people who loves you and worships you intimately, that we may reflect Your glory in this life YOU allow us to live.
Precious Holy Spirit, bless the ministers and the pastors who pastor and minister to YOUR flock in this church. Bless them and touch them in a new and living way that they may be intimate with you and that they would love and serve YOU with the new holy fire burning within them.
in Jesus name! Amen!

Saints, if you read this post, please intercede with me to our LORD JESUS CHRIST for His Bride in Malaysia. Please also pray for me that I would have not a hint of hypocrisy in the way I walk. Pray also that the Holy Spirit would be more real and intimate to me each day.

Thank you all so much
God bless you!

See you soon...

Recently

Hi frens... sorry i long time no post d =)

Well... how am i recently?
I dunno la, i must confess that i have been quite lazy these few weeks...
And then a bit emo also lor... maybe becos of some reasoning within myself.

I want to know what is God's will for this life i live.. its just that maybe i'm not patient..
I desire to experience another dimension of God's anointing... maybe i'm just impatient, not obedient.. not thirsty?

ya Adon! help me..

And moreover my final exams are coming and i have received a warning letter from the school that if i do not retain 66 marks and above for each subject, they will withdraw my scholarship... T_T

i dunno la... so many things i thinking in my head most of the time..

its good that i pour out some of these things coz they remind me and reflect what is in my heart..

plus some more... the deepavali that had just passed, i met my secondary school frens again. I dunno la... i have to be very real and truthful, not that i hate them or bear a grudge against them but its just that i think that is who i really am before my friends.. i just can't talk to them... i dunno why...

ya Adonai! Please renew me, change me into the person whom you want me to be...

TEa!!!

This post is very random =)

Today is Hari Merdeka btw... so... Slamat Hari Merdeka!!

Anyways, i was quite high on coffee... which is not very good. ehehhehe XP

But... i thought it would be nice if i could drink some tea. And i am officially a tea fan! haha!

Here are the 3 beauties that is the tea i like =)

Exhibit A: The Rose

Exhibit B: The Chrysanthemum



Exhibit C: The Dragon Well Leaves

Together, they become the 3 beauties =)

Nice right? heheheh
maybe i am quite a tea maniac.... haha!

Here's a good combination for those who cannot take tea leaves =)
Chrysanthemum plus Rose with hot water is calming and very nice smell XP

Ok la.. before i bore you off with tea i go first la =0

Have a good week!

Day 2 April 6 2009
The alarm rang, I woke... prepared... yawned... and went with Yi Gang to the hall. He was the last but nvm la... what are friends for? So, Yi Gang spread his mat which I forgot to bring and had to share his with him. The session started with the blowing of the Shofar which was the first time I get to hear it live in Malaysia! The sound was great! Oh, the desire to be aligned with God, to feel the power of His anointing. Then we sang songs, worship God and after that, Pastor Zhang Hannah did the devotion with us. And then there were prophecies for different people, mostly pastors. She encouraged them and told them glad tidings =). After that we had breakfast and went back to our rooms. My friend Daniel from Hosanna Praise Tabernacle KL, slept... and well, I just decided to ponder on what was taught yesterday. As I taught on them, I was at peace and well, I was sleepy mainly because I did not get enough sleep last night and partially because evryone around me was asleep! Oh well, I just gave in. After that, we had the next session which is about prayer with full faith. I heard and was amazed by what was taught. He was teaching until it was time for lunch but he did not finish and we cried nevermind about lunch... haha! Then there was a session where he prayed for healing different persons. The first was those who had ached at the back. Then came my catergory, people with eye problems and specs... haha! Well, after all was prayed for, I was not healed on the spot but noticed that the place was brighter. I still trust God that He can heal me of my specs =) . BTW... many people were healed of their maladies and even a pastor who had astigmatism was totally healed and had perfect eyesight! Anyways, after lunch, I wanted to stay there to pray... thanks to audio people, I could not reli concentrate so, I walked around the hall and then I saw Pastor Qiu(pastor for PJEFC Chinese congregation) and friends. I walked to her and followed her selecting books for the church library. She recomended me some books but I just read a few pages and put them aside... I didn't dare to use the RM50 which I have not tithe it and well, the books were like all old chinese characters... Well, save it for another day la... haha! Then, when all the audio people were done, I went back to the hall and I just prayed there. It was a few moments before the next session starts. I prayed and then, I cried. Cried for my brother, my church, my family. Pray that God will bring revival to them! The session was on Forgiveness. I heard the message and it was so real that one lady in front of me knelt down before the message was finished and wept! Then, there was a session that people be prayed for in order that they will be free from hatred and any supressed emotions. I went in front and prayed. I followed the steps confessing and repenting of all the evil things supressed in my heart; telling God that I forgive all those who bullied me and cursed me and backbitten me from my primary school to my secondary school and even my family and asking God to forgive each of them. As I was praying pastors laid hands and prayed for me. I then felt my legs become weak and I lied down... I cried like a baby and I felt that anointing.. that one drop of oil and the covering of Jesus blood. Oh! How beautiful! I surrendered to God and then, I arose and went back. Yi Gang hugged me and I prayed for him. Oh.... the love of Jesus! I continued to pray for them(people in the hall who were struggling) and reading God's word. It was refreshing indeed! After dinner, we continued the next session. It was on the Anointing of the Holy Spirit. After the sermon, everyone was praying and worshipping God so that the Holy Spirit us and use us. I received peace even though Holy Spirit did not cause me to laugh or gave me gifts of the Spirit. Maybe I was not ready to receive what the Holy Spirit wants to give me. Well, we retired and awaited for the next morning. =) Praise God for His mighty acts!

Memoirs at Genting Highlands for Taiwan Prayer Mountain Conference

Shalom! Long time not posting aledy eh... sorry... mixed up with a few things =)

Day one April 5 2009
It was a Sunday, I was sent to my piano teacher's church which is PJEFC. Well, I was excited cause I will get to learn many things there. So, I attended the service with a feeling I owe something. After that, I was invited to share with the youths of the chinese congregation about how Jesus change me. Well, I was nervous and I gave my best. Praise God that I was able to share with them. After that I called Queenie who called me many times and so I found out that I just dumped Ivan to do all the work for Easter. So indebted............ Anyways, I continued with the youths in their Sunday School. It was good and well, I would say that they are somewhat like the chinese youths in my church only more participative. Must continue praying for the youths in my church. Well, after that around 1500, I left with the pastor's group to have lunch and thereafter we left for Genting. When we reached there, I shared a room with 4 people. To me, Peace Haven is not bad like Esther Khoo said. I made my bed and when I was done, I was shocked that it was already time for dinner. After dinner, we gathered at the hall upstairs and had our first session. The worship was good, the speaker astonishes me cause God used him even in such an old age. He's so cute! Anyways, after that we retired to our rooms and I prayed with the 3 men in from PJEFC. As I slept, I noticed that the women opposite our room were more lively and were praying aloud. I could hear them you know! Well, can't wait for tomorrow morning's session 0500-0700 which is the Morning New Oil session. =)

Undecided

Everyone seems to have continued studiying.. well.. if you ask me, I have signed up to take SAT and TOEFL and also registered for Liberty University... well.. I need to study for the test and pray.. if it is indeed God's will then I will enter Liberty but if not then I will study here. Please pray for me, I need help in all these things. Not to mention also in SAT Mathematics... Joel, pls help me =)? Well.. if you can give any advice to me I will accept it thankfully and pls do pray for me.

THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!

PLKN....

Shalom! Peace be with you all! and...
I'm back =)

Well... long time have left this blog undone and well... I just want to post a summary of what I have been thru in PLKN or NS. Well... arriving at the start of 2 Jan which was a fault for me to report late, many thoughts were in my mind. Some were of the camp facilities, some were of what would happen, some were on whether the rumours of PLKN were true(e.g rape, homo, robbery...). Well... I arrived and it blew my mind... the camp was huge and ur... well... it looks nice. Having mixed feelings of excitement and anxiousness, I went to report myself. After all the reporting, I got my uniform and other clothing and a place in dorm Block 10. After that began the connection and the recognizing of people. I met many people and got to know them. Oh... forgot to mention my Company which is the Delta Company. From that day onwards I began to fit myself in. It was not as hard as I thought it would be.
As the weeks grew, the hard training began. We all had to run jump and do anything to finish a job. I presented the acronym of Delta (or was it Cobra...?). Well... as the days passed I learnt many things (e.g: origin of flying fox, survival in forest, theory of shooting and M16, character building which was like kindy class, kelas kenegaraan, community service and social service, obstacle course, kelas kerohanian...). There, I must tell you this that only Jesus was my best friend. I longed and desired that there I could find one who is of the same faith with me and would encourage me in God's word... someone that I could learn from as an ensample. But in PLKN Jesus showed me what a best friend He is. He was always beside me no matter where I am. When I was lonely, He encouraged me. When I was sad, He comforted me. When I was sick, He was beside me healing me slowly. Oh... how can I ever say thanks to Him. I feel in debt. Therefore, I will give Him my life as a living sacrifice hoping that it would please Him every moment! I even longed that Jesus be in flesh to be a concrete friend whom I can hug and well... do things together. But I know deep down in me that He is beside me wherever I go.
I also saw the life of the people there... quite simple from us city folks. But me eyes were not off my brethren... for they were not like Christians but their lives were like Goyim(Gentiles). I wept for them oft and even if I have the chance, I would! Oh... their ways... their tongue... their actions... How I pray that they would not die in God's anger. But thru that sadness Jesus taught me to pray for them, to accept them, to live as an example for Him. Oh, I pray that the Holy Spirit will touch them and set them on fire for Jesus! It is weird lor.. the goyim live more moral lives compared to them... but in all that the main issue that Jesus dealt with me was to accept them as He accepted me.
I met also the bumiputera of Sarawak. They are very cute! most of them are Roman Catholics and well... I too pray that they be on the right path. How I wish I had pics of them. I met Justin Bunyau who was an excellent dancer... Lawrence Jaya whom I did my best to encourage Him to walk the right path. Paul Labar Ingan whom at the last week I found to have the desire for Christ and in whom I rejoice too! Well... must keep praying for them also! I got to know Sibu Jaya Baptist Church in which I believe that Cheras Baptist Church will make good ties with them in the future =) Hope to see them next year (even Cikgu Ringgit =))
Well... came the last night called Malam Perpisahan(Separation Night). We exchanged contacts and said goodbyes with teachers and friends... we miss one another until we did not sleep for the whole night till the morning when the KL trainees must leave dorm at 0430. Well... I cried from the 11th of march 0100 hours and paused somewhere at 0300 and continued again at 0430 even at 0700++ when the plane was taxiing I started crying plus when I saw the message my friend gave me plus the messaged written in my notebook... It is indeed a thousand of old feelings. My tears that fall is not just I miss them but also its like you know that you have a tie with them but... is it going to last? Is it just going to be another memory preserved like a dream last night? I told myself and others if we meet not here then before the face of God... but that is another story altogether. You just worry whether you still have the chance to meet them on Ha Aretz or in Heaven or worse.... will you see them suffer in Hell... well... those are the questions that arose before and on that night. I wept and prayed that they will be blessd that their eyes be opened to see the true path and that they may run on it and in the end meet Jesus. Oh that the Christians become salt and light of the earth! The harvest is ready! sigh...
Well... today is 12 March and to tell you the truth... I still have mixed feelings which may tie me down and well... on 11 March as I talked to my piano teacher about my feelings and emotions... my tears start to stream down...

Well to all the PLKN friends who I know and know my blog... Harap Yesus berkat mu. Sentiasa berdoalah and percaya kpdNya selalu! Jangan putus asa tetapi dalam apa-apa yang kamu lakukan, buatlah dengan sesungguh hatimu sebagai suatu persembahan kepada Yesus! Jangan risau dalam apa-apa perkara tetapi panjat semua risau dan bimbangmu dalam doa kepada Yesus serta percaya teguh bahawa Dia di sisimu selalu! Hiduplah kehidupan yang baru dan bebas dalam YEsus dan jangan sesekali balik kepada kehidupan lamamu dalam tubuh badanmu!
Saya mencadang kamu baca ini dalam kitabmu (Ephesians 4; Rom 6-8,12; 2Korintus5; Matt24-25; Mark 13; Phillipians 4:4-8; 1 Timothy 4:12)
Bacalah dan yang paling penting, faham Jako Tuhan! Berdoa and percaya Roh Kudus akan bantu anda memahami Jako Tuhan. Selepas anda faham, pergi dan melaksanakannya! Harap anda menjadi cahaya dan garam bumi. Well... harap kita dapat berjumpa lagi jika tidak di bumi ini, haraplah di depan Muka Tuhan serta (dgn setinggi harapku) di syurga. =)

Love you people from PLKN Kem Junaco Park Sibu. Will be praying for you and hope you shine for Christ! God bless you guys abundantly!