新年。。。

2009 年过得真快。。。 嗨！
我现在写着这个post 也觉得有不同的心情产在一起。。。
有一点儿的excitement。。。
有一点儿的担忧。。。

我感觉到自己在这年里做了很少
我也不舍得离开这一年儿
但是我骑乃得耶稣依然不停的叫我 “let go of the past! look forward and walk"

我也想回这一年里上帝所做的美事儿。。。

上帝送我去国民服务，让我能体会别人的心和变得跟有耐心。

上帝让我去祷告山的conference，让我能看见祂是一位又真又活得神。

上帝让我能从我钢琴老师的身上学了很多东西。

主啊，你对我的恩典何等的大！

每次在困难和挣扎中唯有你是帮助我

唯有你牵着我双手引我走你要我走的路

虽然有时我不懂你在我身旁

虽然有时我心中一直埋怨，一直有恨，甚至有邪恶的心情

但是你一直耐心的饶恕我

教导我。。。

哦我亲爱的耶稣！

我怎能报答你对我的恩惠和慈爱呢？

我只能献上我身体当作活祭！

我的耶稣，愿你喜悦这活祭！

主啊，年年有你我仍然有安息

年年有你就是好年！

我要天天在你翅膀下欢喜, 求你帮助我！

愿你天天也协助我亲戚 （有其实我两位表弟）不要give up

帮他们天天不停的呼求你，赞美你！

耶稣基督的子民要靠这祂，必定得胜！！

哈利路亚！！主啊, 愿你的国度降临！

愿你的旨意行在全地！

愿你荣耀充满全地，如同海水那样充满地球！

AMEN!!

What do you do when a stranger approaches you...

Shalom!
Something strange happened to me yesterday as I was doing something...
Let me tell you what i was doing yesterday.
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I decided to do a few things as soon as i can.
1) Take form 5 books for Crystal
2) Close my Agro Bank account (opened for NS... their service is not good)
3) Mail something to Singapore

I reach train station i forgot to bring water........... so thirsty!

Anyways..
I was on my way to Agro Bank. I just noticed that it was so easy to get there... just sit train to Masjid Jamek and walk to the opposite side of the train station, behind all the shops...
And then I was so close to Agro Bank like just less than 1minuite walk to the entrance where you can feel the air-cond blowing... a man approached me!
He was an Indian and he like politely approached me. He was like,"Excuse me, I need a small help from you. You see...."

Here's his story...
He was just released from a prison which is in Johor... He was detained because of a passport case... I can't remember what name he told me.. and said that he was given a warrant ticket to KL which was like only one way? So, he used the ticket and he reached KL... and from there he has to go back home himself...
So, he asked me for help to give him some money to help him go back to his home in Taman Semarak Nilai (if i remember correctly....) He was like begging me to help him saying that he just borrow money and will return to me where ever i stay? ......

My response.....
as he was explaining his reason for asking help from me... i was silently praying asking God to give me wisdom and help me... i was shocked a little... but i thank GOd for His peace which does not leave me! There was that calmness within my heart......

I tried to find other ways to tell him how to go home... so hard...
I know he knows how to go home by train and by taxi or bus... but... is he telling me the truth?
I asked him to call his family to pick him up but he said that his family not free/nobody pick up phone and that now he has met me he has nothing with him!

Oh dear.... then he tells me that he has a son studying in UTAR..
Ding! Ding! IDEA
"Sir, i know how you can get to UTAR... here's what you do la... I give you RM5, you take the PUTRA to Melati station and walk straight to UTAR. Its just near there then you meet ur son la!"
But he like dun wan... and then when i ask him to call his son, he said that he has nothing with him to call his son...

uhoh... running out of options...

nvm la!
i gave him rm10 and then i prayed for him. Then, he introduced himself to me saying his name is Andrew, he's a Christian... I talked with him for a while...
In the end i bid him goodbye and safe journey..

Reflecting on this incident... from my experience, i still hold to what Jesus says about what to do when people ask help... if i'm not wrong it is in Luke.

who am i to judge if he is telling the truth of the lie. Let God judge!

VBS day 1....

Today was great although i am quite tired.....

Crazy lor... first time both my partners in the worship rally were MISSING!
Wei Jian was missing coz of heavy traffic jam...
Wilson... is hospitalized (which reli shocked me...)

I want to thank God that He has been my VERY PRESENT HELP ^_^
It was quite tiring but it was also worthwhile coz...THE CHILDREN WERE SO CUTE!!

Saints, please pray for us (the volunteers and station masters for VBS 2009) that God would grant us strength and wisdom in each day. ALso for the children, that the Holy Spirit would work among the children that they would know that Jesus Christ is their only LORD and Saviour.

Until then... Peace and Blessings be with y'all! In Jesus Name!

Repentance and correction

PLease forgive me for the previous post...

I have sinned greatly against God and men. I pray that the people who read the post on 29th of November 2009 to forgive me for the great hurt that I have caused them.

Thank you for your rebuke to me dear Joel.

Better is open rebuke than hidden love. (Pr 27:5)

Peace and blessings be with all of you in Jesus Name!

VBS deco progress

Shalom!
Praise God that today we have 8 people altogether! Halleluyah!!!!!!!!!!

I also want to thank God that I have finished the sign for the Worship Rally and Music opera house station ahahahhaahahahh!! I have decided to combine them together! hahahhahaah!
Well... also praise God that the train is up... hahah!

I reli want to thank Joanne for doing the train! it was so hard to cut cardboard with a blade you know?

sigh.... i still wonder where are those who are on holiday and have responsibility for their stations..

well, i hope tat before VBS evrything is done and completed..

thank you for praying dear saints!
do continue to pray for us! =)

until then, peace and blessings to all of you in Jesus Name!

VBS Deco Progress

Shalom!
I have to praise God for the VBS deco coming on well. Today, we have 6 people with us and so far we have done logos for three stations which are Recreation Rock, Craft Crossing, and G'day Cafe. And praise God that we have officially completed the stage logo! WooHoo!!!

On a personal not however, I have to say that I was dissapointed on the number of people coming to decorate the place... Well, I cannot blame them. I feel that it is very rude to just ask someone out of the blue to come and decorate when they are not responsible at all and that those who are responsible of a station and have holidays cannot come! Well, I dun blame those who are working and studying that cannot come. I have decided to just let go of this worrying and give it to Jesus.

Actually just now, I almost spilled my frustration and anger... But thanks be to God who giveth us the victory through our LORD JESUS CHRIST! The spirit of complaining, bitterness, grumbling, anger, hatred and bitterness have no right to settle in my heart. IN Jesus NAME leave me!!!
Halleluyah!!

Well, my station is not decorated at all... I'm wondering how to make the train station sign with a Sydney opera House in the middle and label around it Worship Rally Central ^_^

Well, there goes the idea of a caboose... unless I make a flat piece out of cardboard... one whole caboose... thanks to AKLT camps, Wei Jian cannot come until next MONDAY! I'll have to ask his father to come...

Anyways, dear saints, please pray for us as we sow our energy and time and thoughts and even some money into this ministry... I pray that the harvest would be big. I believe that the harvest would be great!

OK la... I take nap now...

24 November 2009 VBS Deco Progress

Shalom!
Praise God we've just started VBS deco... At least today was better than yesterday!
Yesterday I tell you ar.... only 1 person and that is me!! I tell you... make me sad only... just that I dun wanna say la later somebody get sad and emo..

Well.. today, only me, Crystal, Sarah, Carmen and Phoebe came and PRAISE GOD that the logo for the worship rally stage was completed 80 percent!

I reli have to thank the 4 girls and also Madam Mun Wai for helping me get the giant cardboard boxes.

I dunno la... honestly, I think I'm the one to blame?
or maybe next time I NEVER help in such a field again?

sigh... I have to be honest la... its quite frustrating? I dunno why but I feel that the people responsible for their classes and stations should confer with those who are able to come and decorate to decorate? I dunno la... I just feel that they are responsible for their stations?? Well... I can't blame anyone la.. maybe it is all my fault...
Even if they came early, the cardboard cannot come when they came and then I would become emotional again because I cannot do anything neither can anyone else?

Sigh... well.. come to think of it.. its good to learn from such a thing... I also can't blame anyone else because they are away on some unprecedented thing and cannot come or they are working and studying.

Actually, the main thing I'm struggling within myself is the thing of asking...
I mean, when you want to ask someone, you have to understand what the person feels, or what he or she is going through... you can't just ask like nobody's business!
It really hurts and does not show affection...
And also... I really have to learn to say no to somethings...
Sigh... I pray dear Holy Spirit.... Make me SUPER SENSITIVE TO YOU! I dun wanna be alone in doing these things! They are a heavy yoke to me! Help me dear Holy Spirit...

Saints, please pray for me that I would not have any bitter root trying to get into my heart..

Well, I hope that tomorrow more people would turn up to do the deco since the cardboard boxes are already here...

Until then
Peace be with y'all in Christ Jesus!

Hi again!

Hey people,
I'm back! (After a long break from posting! hahahah!)

Well, the holidays are here and thank God that my finals were over. I truly praise God for all the marks that I have received back from my final exams... although my Accounting paper was not good because I got 42 which my teacher did her best to push it up to 48... sigh...
I tell you all la... seriously... my school (School of Pre-University Studies) in Tunku Abdul Rahman College is super cina... Reli lor... but what can you expect... I am one of their scholars (God's work not mine) and they expect very very much from their scholars... one subject if did not get 60 and above, they will issue a warning letter to us and tell us that if we do not get 60 and above they will withdraw our scholarship... scary but still thank God that He helped me through my exams...
Well, I hope that during the holidays I have enough time and energy to recap my studies...

Honestly, lately, I've had ups and downs.. like energy swings you know? sometimes you have much energy and sometimes you don't have...
And the funny thing is that when you have much energy, you don't have much to do... and when you have not so much energy in you, you have many things to do... sigh... I wish that everyday I can have much energy... through the filling of the Holy Spirit of course... still learning to be patient in waiting on Him.

And now, as I'm writing this post, I feel tired and a bit no semangat cause, VBS is coming so soon and we have not started anything yet! Then last Thursday when I read email sent by Timothy to me on MSN, I felt guilty and a bit sad coz he asked me to be supervising and helping the decorations move smoothly... and I am so ineffecient and well... so lazy... I may be not organized at times also...
I honestly also have regrets in my heart about saying yes to supervising decorations...

But I will do my best in this area that I have been given to do... These feelings shall have no dominion over me because greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world!

And on a personal note, even though what people may tell me about what my church may lack greatly in (which is true), I will do my best to persevere and pray for Jesus' church (Cheras Baptist Church).

Precious Holy Spirit, help me pray to our dear Jesus Christ that Cheras Baptist Church would be renewed into a new wineskin so that YOU can take control over her and that your sheep of Cheras Baptist Church would experience a fresh outpouring of YOU, a new relationship with YOU, YOUR new oil in each person's life; that we may be a people who loves you and worships you intimately, that we may reflect Your glory in this life YOU allow us to live.
Precious Holy Spirit, bless the ministers and the pastors who pastor and minister to YOUR flock in this church. Bless them and touch them in a new and living way that they may be intimate with you and that they would love and serve YOU with the new holy fire burning within them.
in Jesus name! Amen!

Saints, if you read this post, please intercede with me to our LORD JESUS CHRIST for His Bride in Malaysia. Please also pray for me that I would have not a hint of hypocrisy in the way I walk. Pray also that the Holy Spirit would be more real and intimate to me each day.

Thank you all so much
God bless you!

See you soon...

Recently

Hi frens... sorry i long time no post d =)

Well... how am i recently?
I dunno la, i must confess that i have been quite lazy these few weeks...
And then a bit emo also lor... maybe becos of some reasoning within myself.

I want to know what is God's will for this life i live.. its just that maybe i'm not patient..
I desire to experience another dimension of God's anointing... maybe i'm just impatient, not obedient.. not thirsty?

ya Adon! help me..

And moreover my final exams are coming and i have received a warning letter from the school that if i do not retain 66 marks and above for each subject, they will withdraw my scholarship... T_T

i dunno la... so many things i thinking in my head most of the time..

its good that i pour out some of these things coz they remind me and reflect what is in my heart..

plus some more... the deepavali that had just passed, i met my secondary school frens again. I dunno la... i have to be very real and truthful, not that i hate them or bear a grudge against them but its just that i think that is who i really am before my friends.. i just can't talk to them... i dunno why...

ya Adonai! Please renew me, change me into the person whom you want me to be...

TEa!!!

This post is very random =)

Today is Hari Merdeka btw... so... Slamat Hari Merdeka!!

Anyways, i was quite high on coffee... which is not very good. ehehhehe XP

But... i thought it would be nice if i could drink some tea. And i am officially a tea fan! haha!

Here are the 3 beauties that is the tea i like =)

Exhibit A: The Rose

Exhibit B: The Chrysanthemum



Exhibit C: The Dragon Well Leaves

Together, they become the 3 beauties =)

Nice right? heheheh
maybe i am quite a tea maniac.... haha!

Here's a good combination for those who cannot take tea leaves =)
Chrysanthemum plus Rose with hot water is calming and very nice smell XP

Ok la.. before i bore you off with tea i go first la =0

Have a good week!

Day 2 April 6 2009
The alarm rang, I woke... prepared... yawned... and went with Yi Gang to the hall. He was the last but nvm la... what are friends for? So, Yi Gang spread his mat which I forgot to bring and had to share his with him. The session started with the blowing of the Shofar which was the first time I get to hear it live in Malaysia! The sound was great! Oh, the desire to be aligned with God, to feel the power of His anointing. Then we sang songs, worship God and after that, Pastor Zhang Hannah did the devotion with us. And then there were prophecies for different people, mostly pastors. She encouraged them and told them glad tidings =). After that we had breakfast and went back to our rooms. My friend Daniel from Hosanna Praise Tabernacle KL, slept... and well, I just decided to ponder on what was taught yesterday. As I taught on them, I was at peace and well, I was sleepy mainly because I did not get enough sleep last night and partially because evryone around me was asleep! Oh well, I just gave in. After that, we had the next session which is about prayer with full faith. I heard and was amazed by what was taught. He was teaching until it was time for lunch but he did not finish and we cried nevermind about lunch... haha! Then there was a session where he prayed for healing different persons. The first was those who had ached at the back. Then came my catergory, people with eye problems and specs... haha! Well, after all was prayed for, I was not healed on the spot but noticed that the place was brighter. I still trust God that He can heal me of my specs =) . BTW... many people were healed of their maladies and even a pastor who had astigmatism was totally healed and had perfect eyesight! Anyways, after lunch, I wanted to stay there to pray... thanks to audio people, I could not reli concentrate so, I walked around the hall and then I saw Pastor Qiu(pastor for PJEFC Chinese congregation) and friends. I walked to her and followed her selecting books for the church library. She recomended me some books but I just read a few pages and put them aside... I didn't dare to use the RM50 which I have not tithe it and well, the books were like all old chinese characters... Well, save it for another day la... haha! Then, when all the audio people were done, I went back to the hall and I just prayed there. It was a few moments before the next session starts. I prayed and then, I cried. Cried for my brother, my church, my family. Pray that God will bring revival to them! The session was on Forgiveness. I heard the message and it was so real that one lady in front of me knelt down before the message was finished and wept! Then, there was a session that people be prayed for in order that they will be free from hatred and any supressed emotions. I went in front and prayed. I followed the steps confessing and repenting of all the evil things supressed in my heart; telling God that I forgive all those who bullied me and cursed me and backbitten me from my primary school to my secondary school and even my family and asking God to forgive each of them. As I was praying pastors laid hands and prayed for me. I then felt my legs become weak and I lied down... I cried like a baby and I felt that anointing.. that one drop of oil and the covering of Jesus blood. Oh! How beautiful! I surrendered to God and then, I arose and went back. Yi Gang hugged me and I prayed for him. Oh.... the love of Jesus! I continued to pray for them(people in the hall who were struggling) and reading God's word. It was refreshing indeed! After dinner, we continued the next session. It was on the Anointing of the Holy Spirit. After the sermon, everyone was praying and worshipping God so that the Holy Spirit us and use us. I received peace even though Holy Spirit did not cause me to laugh or gave me gifts of the Spirit. Maybe I was not ready to receive what the Holy Spirit wants to give me. Well, we retired and awaited for the next morning. =) Praise God for His mighty acts!

Memoirs at Genting Highlands for Taiwan Prayer Mountain Conference

Shalom! Long time not posting aledy eh... sorry... mixed up with a few things =)

Day one April 5 2009
It was a Sunday, I was sent to my piano teacher's church which is PJEFC. Well, I was excited cause I will get to learn many things there. So, I attended the service with a feeling I owe something. After that, I was invited to share with the youths of the chinese congregation about how Jesus change me. Well, I was nervous and I gave my best. Praise God that I was able to share with them. After that I called Queenie who called me many times and so I found out that I just dumped Ivan to do all the work for Easter. So indebted............ Anyways, I continued with the youths in their Sunday School. It was good and well, I would say that they are somewhat like the chinese youths in my church only more participative. Must continue praying for the youths in my church. Well, after that around 1500, I left with the pastor's group to have lunch and thereafter we left for Genting. When we reached there, I shared a room with 4 people. To me, Peace Haven is not bad like Esther Khoo said. I made my bed and when I was done, I was shocked that it was already time for dinner. After dinner, we gathered at the hall upstairs and had our first session. The worship was good, the speaker astonishes me cause God used him even in such an old age. He's so cute! Anyways, after that we retired to our rooms and I prayed with the 3 men in from PJEFC. As I slept, I noticed that the women opposite our room were more lively and were praying aloud. I could hear them you know! Well, can't wait for tomorrow morning's session 0500-0700 which is the Morning New Oil session. =)

Undecided

Everyone seems to have continued studiying.. well.. if you ask me, I have signed up to take SAT and TOEFL and also registered for Liberty University... well.. I need to study for the test and pray.. if it is indeed God's will then I will enter Liberty but if not then I will study here. Please pray for me, I need help in all these things. Not to mention also in SAT Mathematics... Joel, pls help me =)? Well.. if you can give any advice to me I will accept it thankfully and pls do pray for me.

THANK YOU ALL VERY MUCH!

PLKN....

Shalom! Peace be with you all! and...
I'm back =)

Well... long time have left this blog undone and well... I just want to post a summary of what I have been thru in PLKN or NS. Well... arriving at the start of 2 Jan which was a fault for me to report late, many thoughts were in my mind. Some were of the camp facilities, some were of what would happen, some were on whether the rumours of PLKN were true(e.g rape, homo, robbery...). Well... I arrived and it blew my mind... the camp was huge and ur... well... it looks nice. Having mixed feelings of excitement and anxiousness, I went to report myself. After all the reporting, I got my uniform and other clothing and a place in dorm Block 10. After that began the connection and the recognizing of people. I met many people and got to know them. Oh... forgot to mention my Company which is the Delta Company. From that day onwards I began to fit myself in. It was not as hard as I thought it would be.
As the weeks grew, the hard training began. We all had to run jump and do anything to finish a job. I presented the acronym of Delta (or was it Cobra...?). Well... as the days passed I learnt many things (e.g: origin of flying fox, survival in forest, theory of shooting and M16, character building which was like kindy class, kelas kenegaraan, community service and social service, obstacle course, kelas kerohanian...). There, I must tell you this that only Jesus was my best friend. I longed and desired that there I could find one who is of the same faith with me and would encourage me in God's word... someone that I could learn from as an ensample. But in PLKN Jesus showed me what a best friend He is. He was always beside me no matter where I am. When I was lonely, He encouraged me. When I was sad, He comforted me. When I was sick, He was beside me healing me slowly. Oh... how can I ever say thanks to Him. I feel in debt. Therefore, I will give Him my life as a living sacrifice hoping that it would please Him every moment! I even longed that Jesus be in flesh to be a concrete friend whom I can hug and well... do things together. But I know deep down in me that He is beside me wherever I go.
I also saw the life of the people there... quite simple from us city folks. But me eyes were not off my brethren... for they were not like Christians but their lives were like Goyim(Gentiles). I wept for them oft and even if I have the chance, I would! Oh... their ways... their tongue... their actions... How I pray that they would not die in God's anger. But thru that sadness Jesus taught me to pray for them, to accept them, to live as an example for Him. Oh, I pray that the Holy Spirit will touch them and set them on fire for Jesus! It is weird lor.. the goyim live more moral lives compared to them... but in all that the main issue that Jesus dealt with me was to accept them as He accepted me.
I met also the bumiputera of Sarawak. They are very cute! most of them are Roman Catholics and well... I too pray that they be on the right path. How I wish I had pics of them. I met Justin Bunyau who was an excellent dancer... Lawrence Jaya whom I did my best to encourage Him to walk the right path. Paul Labar Ingan whom at the last week I found to have the desire for Christ and in whom I rejoice too! Well... must keep praying for them also! I got to know Sibu Jaya Baptist Church in which I believe that Cheras Baptist Church will make good ties with them in the future =) Hope to see them next year (even Cikgu Ringgit =))
Well... came the last night called Malam Perpisahan(Separation Night). We exchanged contacts and said goodbyes with teachers and friends... we miss one another until we did not sleep for the whole night till the morning when the KL trainees must leave dorm at 0430. Well... I cried from the 11th of march 0100 hours and paused somewhere at 0300 and continued again at 0430 even at 0700++ when the plane was taxiing I started crying plus when I saw the message my friend gave me plus the messaged written in my notebook... It is indeed a thousand of old feelings. My tears that fall is not just I miss them but also its like you know that you have a tie with them but... is it going to last? Is it just going to be another memory preserved like a dream last night? I told myself and others if we meet not here then before the face of God... but that is another story altogether. You just worry whether you still have the chance to meet them on Ha Aretz or in Heaven or worse.... will you see them suffer in Hell... well... those are the questions that arose before and on that night. I wept and prayed that they will be blessd that their eyes be opened to see the true path and that they may run on it and in the end meet Jesus. Oh that the Christians become salt and light of the earth! The harvest is ready! sigh...
Well... today is 12 March and to tell you the truth... I still have mixed feelings which may tie me down and well... on 11 March as I talked to my piano teacher about my feelings and emotions... my tears start to stream down...

Well to all the PLKN friends who I know and know my blog... Harap Yesus berkat mu. Sentiasa berdoalah and percaya kpdNya selalu! Jangan putus asa tetapi dalam apa-apa yang kamu lakukan, buatlah dengan sesungguh hatimu sebagai suatu persembahan kepada Yesus! Jangan risau dalam apa-apa perkara tetapi panjat semua risau dan bimbangmu dalam doa kepada Yesus serta percaya teguh bahawa Dia di sisimu selalu! Hiduplah kehidupan yang baru dan bebas dalam YEsus dan jangan sesekali balik kepada kehidupan lamamu dalam tubuh badanmu!
Saya mencadang kamu baca ini dalam kitabmu (Ephesians 4; Rom 6-8,12; 2Korintus5; Matt24-25; Mark 13; Phillipians 4:4-8; 1 Timothy 4:12)
Bacalah dan yang paling penting, faham Jako Tuhan! Berdoa and percaya Roh Kudus akan bantu anda memahami Jako Tuhan. Selepas anda faham, pergi dan melaksanakannya! Harap anda menjadi cahaya dan garam bumi. Well... harap kita dapat berjumpa lagi jika tidak di bumi ini, haraplah di depan Muka Tuhan serta (dgn setinggi harapku) di syurga. =)

Love you people from PLKN Kem Junaco Park Sibu. Will be praying for you and hope you shine for Christ! God bless you guys abundantly!